She’s Not MY Something Special

I wish I could get her

Off of my mind,

But she's something special;

She's one of a kind.

I wish I could tell her

How I really feel,

But nothing would change,

Nothing would heal.

Once I told her,

Great changes would occur,

I'd wish we could go back,

To the way things were.

I'd feel weird around her,

This I knew,

But as to her reaction;

I haven't a clue.

I soon found out,

That I'd be just "Jon"

No longer a real friend,

For she feared "leading me on"

I loved being her friend,

And seeing her smile,

Now we barely talk,

Only once in a while.

I wish I didn't tell her

About the feelings I had,

What I hoped would end good,

Actually ended quite bad.

I wish we could go back,

To what we had

It makes me angry,

It makes me sad.

Now I am filled

Up to the top

With feelings of regret

That won't ever stop.

I had to tell her

This I knew,

I thought to myself,

I just have to…

And when I told her,

I then understood;

I ended our friendship,

And it ended for good.

We don't talk,

Or laugh anymore,

I just wish I could've

Known this before;

Then we'd still be friends,

Forevermore.

Now I wish I could get her,

Out of my mind,

But she's something special,

She's one of a kind.

-Jon Wimer